Days without Internet connection

Have not been able to have access to the Internet for the past four days. I am now posting here wirelessly but not sure if it will be uploaded. Guess will have to wait for my new cable connection to be installed not later than next week :-(

Gonna be warm tomorrow but showers expected. Hopefully will see more happy faces on the streets............

4.43am....yes, I am still awake at this time....I am not drunk or anything but just don't feel like sleeping. Will try to go to bed by 5am, though. Cheers!

Freaking drunk..........

I got so wasted last night but managed to get home safe. This is really something that I would not normally do but was so down that I had to drink a lot to numb myself. I am trying......if I can survive through such painful experiences I will definitely become a stronger person.

At 3.38pm est

I hope so.........

Today is the worst day in this entire year. I am feeling so helpless................ I hope I will make it through.......................

At sixes and sevens

Knowing that someone is listening and providing comfort when you are in a rather confused state of mind is really heartening. Regardless, will still have to find a way out.

Tossing and turning for hours before I could really fall asleep. Even though, I did not sleep well at all. Anyway, thanks a lot for your advice. I mean, to my dearest Bro and Leon from Singapore.

Got to unwind myself. I am all ready to hit the gym again...................hope I will feel better after that..............................

Sunday at 11am est

Saturday night........

Just changed my featured photo. Took it myself days ago. I worked out at the gym so hard and I think my hard work paid off ;o) Long way to go ;o(

I think I am acting a bit strange today - mentally. When I got home today, I saw a white envelope with a piece of small note on the desk. My roommate is moving out in two weeks. Yes, that's indeed a very short notice to have been given out by anybody living in Manhattan. I was really pissed but there is still nothing I can do to change the reality. My mind is blank now.................................again.............................

At 1155pm est

Another post on the same day.....

Nothing much, just wanted to come here and pour out a bit of my ambivalence toward that so-called special someone, not literally but, at least after years of being a single. I have always been very cautious about people of whom I find to be intelligent and humorous because I tend to get close to this type of person. Well, guess I am a pretty quiet and boring person who does not have a really colorful life despite the fact that I have been in this big city for years that many people have wanted to live in.

I was actually invited to go over to this special someone's apt tonight but somehow I was told at the eleventh hour that we might have to do it another time. I was really well prepared to get closer to this person tonight but that message came as a warning to me that I should keep a distance and hold back a little. I know I have always been pretty in control of almost everything in life but not quite when it comes to a relationship nonetheless. I guess having great times matters most in a "relationship" of its kind. No, we never talked about being an item whatsoever. The gestures, intimacy and conversations we've had and I knew it instinctively that we are pretty close and just steps away from becoming an item. No I am not desperate for love but no one would resist the temptation, would you?

I've learnt to be strong after the previous heartbreaking moments that lasted months. That's why I never been out hunting for love even though I have implicit faith in myself. Love is a mutual feeling and it is hard to find but not impossible. Well, well I am feeling much better now after letting it out (just like someone in the asylum talking to the wall..hehe). May still need something to knock me out tonight ;o) Cheers!

On Tuesday at 10pm est

Doggy...smile....hehe

Found this little cutie online moments ago and added to my blog...hehe

Wonder what my brother has been doing recently as he has not posted anything here for days. Must be stuck with his piano practice.

Don't work too hard (I know you won't)....LOL

On Tue at 1.12pm est.

A brand new week..........

A brand new day and week......did not really do anything during the weekend but had a great time with a friend I got to know recently. We had a great time at McDonald's. Was raining the whole day that day (Sat) but luckily none of us was drenched as a result ;-P

Just had two slices of bread and a glass of organic milk. Will hit the gym in a bit before meeting up with a friend who promised to burn me a CD (a nice movie which quite a number of my friends agreed).

Another sad news today that Citigroup would slash about 53,000 jobs after learning that one of the largest electronic stores in the States, Circuit City filed for Chapter 11 Bankruptcy Protection last Mon (Nov 10th). When will these issues be put to an end? Kind of unpredictable even though the newly-elected President promised that tackling on the global economy would be the first priority after him taking office. God bless America!

Monday at 2pm est

Economic downturn

Being put through the toughest time in my life. Well, I mean the same goes for almost every working adult. The only thing that can keep one going is "love", unconditional one. Love will open up our heart and give us comfort. I felt so warm after an outing with a friend who gave me so much comfort, no hugging, no kissing. Merely the words said to me and the topics we shared with each other meant so much to me. The togetherness..........

Was walking in the rain for about half-an-hour all by myself after the dinner with Ray. The entire neighborhood was like a dead town during the downpour and of course, downturn. I pray for the people to be re-united and the economy to be resuscitated in shortest time possible.

One last thing, whoever follows or reads my blog will have my blessings.

Thursday at 12.50am est

I have one more follower....;o)

I have another follower ;-) Haven't had time to post here. Will be back soon.

Thursday at 7pm est

It's been a week........

It's been more than a week since I last logged in here. Not really busy with my work but somehow had nothing much to contribute here. No complaints so far.

A few more days will be Halloween. May not be joining the parade but will be going to a Halloween party with a group of friends. It is going to be a huge party and costs US$90 to get in. I hope it will be fun. Stay tuned! ;o)

At 1310hrs on Wednesday

Bad and good news????

Construction at the back of my apartment has been getting on my nerves since early 2008. Did not know about this before I moved in here and now that I have been having problem to really zzzzzz soundly ever since. It will be a luxurious condo with floor-to-ceiling see-through windows and whoever moving in upon completion will have a great view of the city skyline though it is not really a high-rise property. Plus, walking distance to the river and that is the place at which most of the residents here spend their time during summer, jogging, cycling, brisk walking, running, rollerskating/blading, etc. Of course, I am one of those people that do that in summertime....I mean one of the abovementioned activities and not all of them, mind you. Anyway, as usual - I was awakened by the noice of the construction this morning and since I was not able to go back to sleep I decided to check my e-mails.

Bad news???

Received an e-mail from my cousin who has two lovely children - my niece and nephew. By the way, they are not in the States. The e-mail was about the nurse advising her to reduce her intake of potassium as the level of it found in her body is rare (relatively high as opposed to deficiency) and she asked me if I knew what it was and what would be the worst scenario. Yes, I heard of potassium but did not really know what it was besides knowing that banana is high in potassium. I quickly did a research on this mineral and filled her in with necessary information. I advised her not to drink too much coffee, certain types of fruits (such as grapefruit, tomato, orange, melon, etc.) and vegetables (brocolli, potato). Additionally, I suggested her to hit the gym at least once or twice a week no matter how busy her schedule is and plenty of water to keep herself hydrated and by drinking enough fluid will actually help with the excretion of toxins accumulated in one's body. People usually talk about healthy diet and lifestyle concurrently. Eat a bit of everything instead of avoiding certain food and beverages that you dislike. Bottom line, everything in moderation.

Her annual medical check-up report will be reviewed and out in a week's time. At least she is doing it on a regular basis instead of not doing it at all as early detection is better than any type of treatment. Stay healthy!

Good news??? Guess so ;-)

A friend of mine wanted me to accompany him to inspect a big townhouse in the city (not literally). The last inspection carried out by the licensed inspector was about three months ago and he wanted to make sure that everything would be in order before closing the deal tomorrow. He asked for my opinions but I knew that my words would not hold sway over his ultimate decision even though what I said did carry weight somehow. It was lucky that everything was in order and he got a good deal. I am excited for him. Given the current economy, he's still able to get good rates from a few financial institutions to finance this US$1.1million property. As for the renovation and decoration, they will be carried out in stages. This is a prudent step to do for every homeowner unless one has a lot of cash to spare and/or the economy is good.

Good people should be blessed though not always the case. Be nice to your friends, family, co-workers and even strangers. You don't necessary have to lend a helping hand if you do not want to or it is beyond your ability but do not sabotage anybody - that's bad ;-P

10.25pm on Thursday.

Gosh! Obsession!!!!

I just can't believe that after trying so hard to explain the situation to her, she is still so hard-headed. I am going to leave her alone and time will tell.

All the best to you.


1.10pm est on Wednesday

Sort of resolved........

She sent me another e-mail sort of offering her apology for being judgemental and inconsistency of her language which of course, I did not reject and should not harbor grudge. Again, I explained to her that I only wanted the best for her and by no means of libelling her co.

Guess she's been under a lot of stress lately that she gets emotional and her mood changes too drastically and opinions being too extreme.

5.16pm est on Tuesday

Halloween joke ;-)

Halloween is Coming a cabbie picks up a nun.

She gets into the cab, and notices that the VERY handsome cab driver won't stop staring at her. She asks him why he is staring.

He replies: 'I have a question to ask, but I don't want to offend you.'

She answers, ' My son, you cannot offend me. When you're as old as I am and have been a nun as long as I have, you get a chance to see and hear just about everything. I'm sure that there's nothing you could say or ask that I would find offensive.'

'Well, I've always had a fantasy to have a nun kiss me.' She responds, 'Well, let's see what we can do about that: #1, you have to be single and #2, you must be Catholic.'

The cab driver is very excited and says, 'Yes, I'm single and Catholic!' 'OK' the nun says. 'Pull into the next alley.' The nun fulfills his fantasy with a kiss that would make a hooker blush.

But when they get back on the road, the cab driver starts crying. 'My dear child,' said the nun, 'Why are you crying?' 'Forgive me but I feel sinful. I lied andI must confess; I'm married and I'm Jewish.' The nun says,............................................................





'That's OK. My name is Kevin and I'm going to a Halloween party.'

hahaha At 3.44pm est on Tuesday

That e-mail ignited the flames within me....

Received an e-mail around 1am est. It took me awhile to disgest the contents, the way she put it was kind of harsh. From there, I concluded that her thinking and issues at which she's looking from her perspective seem pretty shallow. She's too obsessed with her co. and too engrossed in what she's doing. Not that I wanted to be judgemental but that's how she categorized herself.

I want everything good to happen to her and hope for the best. I would've never expected her to be so "forward-looking" (not in the quite good way, though). It is good to be aggressive and focused but one must not forget the direction, the pathway to success instead of being a mere follower like many others. I was trying to analyze the situation with her and explore possibilities for her but she in a way "accused" me for picking on her co.

Sometimes more people are involved in a project will lead to confusion but things turn out well in most cases. Everyone has his/her own strengths and weaknesses for which no one should be condemned, that's what brainstorming sessions are all about.

I hope she was under a lot of stress when she composed that e-mail........otherwise..........

3am.......

Fall........chilly............

All of a sudden, feel like sunbathing. This is the place at which I always get myself tanned. However, summer is over and it is too cold to get in the sun.

My mind is so blank now..............not knowing what to write............just wanted to post a photo here.

Be on the horns of a dilemma...

Should I go with what my heart tells me to do or just spare one more chance? I am not really confused as I know either decision I make will have its own pros and cons. Nevertheless, if I were to give in again chances that history would repeat which I do not want to. Contemplating which option to go for and at the same time trying to explore other possibilities though not quite likely.

Everyone deserves a second chance.....a chance to explain and a chance to change. If three chances have been given and patience exhausted there is really no turning back even though it will be heartbreaking to single it out.

No one is born cruel or heartless but sometimes under circumstances we have to. You may not understand what this post is all about only if you have encountered such dilemma per se.

Completed at 4.25pm on Friday.

Friday afternoon..........

2.11pm on Friday. Tomorrow is another brand new weekend. Supposed to be happy and can't wait to relax but........... Not sure if it is due to economic turmoil, more browsers than buyers at most of the malls. Don't really know what gloom and doom is and how it will look like? Well, I guess it is pretty obvious in this cosmopolitan city. Yes, in the metropolis.

So much has been injected in the financial institutions but so far nothing has really worked yet. More plans will be coming up and certainly look forward to some significant and positive effect. Let's keep our fingers crossed.

TGIF!!! Later.

My very first blog....abOuT mYsElf, fRiEnds, FaMilY, aNYtHinG and EvEryThiNG....

It is a quarter to 6pm est on Oct 09th, 2008 (Thursday). The purpose of this blog is not to impress but to improve the quality of my life in a way. In addition, this is something that can motivate me to write whenever I am in a mood and have something to share. In ancient times, or rather, decades ago there was no way that people were able to record things that happened to them in life for reminiscence years later. Good or bad, if you know what I mean. We are lucky to be able to share anything that we think worth sharing with everybody whether or not you have an account ;o). Isn't it cool? Of course, we must not forget the hardwork and creativity of the inventor(s) so that we could be here to interact with people from all walks of life throughout the world. We salute you/you guys.

Let me try hit "Publish Post" and see how it will look like.....