Days without Internet connection

Have not been able to have access to the Internet for the past four days. I am now posting here wirelessly but not sure if it will be uploaded. Guess will have to wait for my new cable connection to be installed not later than next week :-(

Gonna be warm tomorrow but showers expected. Hopefully will see more happy faces on the streets............

4.43am....yes, I am still awake at this time....I am not drunk or anything but just don't feel like sleeping. Will try to go to bed by 5am, though. Cheers!

Freaking drunk..........

I got so wasted last night but managed to get home safe. This is really something that I would not normally do but was so down that I had to drink a lot to numb myself. I am trying......if I can survive through such painful experiences I will definitely become a stronger person.

At 3.38pm est

I hope so.........

Today is the worst day in this entire year. I am feeling so helpless................ I hope I will make it through.......................

At sixes and sevens

Knowing that someone is listening and providing comfort when you are in a rather confused state of mind is really heartening. Regardless, will still have to find a way out.

Tossing and turning for hours before I could really fall asleep. Even though, I did not sleep well at all. Anyway, thanks a lot for your advice. I mean, to my dearest Bro and Leon from Singapore.

Got to unwind myself. I am all ready to hit the gym again...................hope I will feel better after that..............................

Sunday at 11am est

Saturday night........

Just changed my featured photo. Took it myself days ago. I worked out at the gym so hard and I think my hard work paid off ;o) Long way to go ;o(

I think I am acting a bit strange today - mentally. When I got home today, I saw a white envelope with a piece of small note on the desk. My roommate is moving out in two weeks. Yes, that's indeed a very short notice to have been given out by anybody living in Manhattan. I was really pissed but there is still nothing I can do to change the reality. My mind is blank now.................................again.............................

At 1155pm est

Another post on the same day.....

Nothing much, just wanted to come here and pour out a bit of my ambivalence toward that so-called special someone, not literally but, at least after years of being a single. I have always been very cautious about people of whom I find to be intelligent and humorous because I tend to get close to this type of person. Well, guess I am a pretty quiet and boring person who does not have a really colorful life despite the fact that I have been in this big city for years that many people have wanted to live in.

I was actually invited to go over to this special someone's apt tonight but somehow I was told at the eleventh hour that we might have to do it another time. I was really well prepared to get closer to this person tonight but that message came as a warning to me that I should keep a distance and hold back a little. I know I have always been pretty in control of almost everything in life but not quite when it comes to a relationship nonetheless. I guess having great times matters most in a "relationship" of its kind. No, we never talked about being an item whatsoever. The gestures, intimacy and conversations we've had and I knew it instinctively that we are pretty close and just steps away from becoming an item. No I am not desperate for love but no one would resist the temptation, would you?

I've learnt to be strong after the previous heartbreaking moments that lasted months. That's why I never been out hunting for love even though I have implicit faith in myself. Love is a mutual feeling and it is hard to find but not impossible. Well, well I am feeling much better now after letting it out (just like someone in the asylum talking to the wall..hehe). May still need something to knock me out tonight ;o) Cheers!

On Tuesday at 10pm est

Doggy...smile....hehe

Found this little cutie online moments ago and added to my blog...hehe

Wonder what my brother has been doing recently as he has not posted anything here for days. Must be stuck with his piano practice.

Don't work too hard (I know you won't)....LOL

On Tue at 1.12pm est.